The Girl's Day

"What hurts the most

was being so close,

and having so much to say,

and watching you walk away..."

Greg finally texted me today, and i shut his ass down. he trie accusing me of cheating on him while we were dating. I wish he would just see that not everyone is out to hurt him, especially not me. I would never ever do that to him but i dont think he's ever going to understand that. I've been doing so well this passed week with not being depressed, and it was just all ruined today.. it hurts so bad...

Have u ever felt unwanted,

Like nobody wants you?

Like no matter how hard u try,

you're never gunna be good enough?

Like even if u didnt do anything wrong,

you still feel like dirt.

You start to believe that you deserve that feeling.

No guy should have the right to make you feel like dirt,

then why does it seem to always end up that way..?

I could really use a good cry right now.

I feel like i have absolutelly no one.

Hung out with Joel today also, and his friend Jason. that was always my biggest problem with our relationship before. His friends make me angry. They all think they're so cool because they're in a band that probably wont go anywhere, so they're stuck up and little bitches. seriously i just want to puch them all in the faces lol. But whatever I'm over i guess. I just really hate the human race lol. Possibly going to the movie's tomorrow with Joel. I'm glad he's here for me i really need someone to be here for me right now, this is so hard. like I'm reallyglad that me and Joel are talking again, but at the same time i wish this never would have happened between me and Greg. It's all soooo confusing!

My mom has yet to get me into a therapy... oh ya forgot to tell the world that i have to go to therapy now lol (not for greg lol) no because of my anger and because of my depression. I'm gunna need this therapy if i have to be around Joel's friends.. I want to beat all their faces in lmfaooo. xD not all of them but most lol.

I feel like I'm never going to be able to get over this pain it hurts so bad!

Song's of the Day: What Hurts the Most; Skyway Avenue