She can't stop..

I've become Obsessed...

I feel like i cant stop, I don't want to stop...
Just a little bit more.. maybe a little bit more.
And know matter how much more i keep going,
i feel like it makes no difference, so i gotta keep going, more and more.
I can't stop, no i just cant.
Run a little more today, eat a little healthier.
I need to give my body a break.
No i can't stop now, just one more mile.
a few more crunches. a little less food..

A couple more sit-ups, one more glass of water, then I'll sleep. Maybe..

Ghost Hunting

The spirits...

I've went ghost hunting once before, with Catherine and a few of her friends and it was soooo intense! I would really like to go again very soon. For some reason i feel like right now is just the right time to go! The first place i went to was Marrow Road, there is currently a movie being made about it and my experience was really intense there, but i would really like to go somewhere crazier next time, and maybe there again too (:

My want My need

To be Creative...


WPHS, the very radio station that i will miss so much this summer! I actually made this picture while very bored in school (before summer vacation of course) . i have a very big urge to be very creative right now and sadly no way to express it ): first line of business when i go to my ma's. work on my journal quite a bit (:

I found this picture online, and in my mind its very inspiring. Maybe its just because I'm vegetarian, maybe not. Ever since i was little i always gave my step-dad the i love you sign before going to bed or before leaving. This picture has some crazy meaning i can't even explain, atleast in my eyes (: What do you think it could mean, at least to you?

The Day is Still Young...

i would like to do something today. I'm kinda feeling like a walk through the park (:

IT'S SUMMER TIME!

Its summer time, and i'm livin with my daddy (:


It's been one week since school got out, and one week since i've been at my dads. so far i've been pretty lazy. haven't done any journaling, haven't read at all, and all though its currently 230 in the morning that is all going to change! Starting as soon as i wake up It's time to excerice, eat healthy, read more, and definitely journal a heck of a lot more (including on here). (:


Check List


wake up []
Eat healthy breakfast []
enjoy a nice cup of coffee []
Work out somehow []
drink water all day []
read either:
A.) Impulse []
B.) Perks of being a wallflower []
Journal []
Take some pictures []
Back here []
;)


Summer Goal

Get a job, save up some money, get my license, and eventually maybe a car. (:



Current favorite movie

Coyote Ugly

save her from herself!

If yer looking at the first picture on this blog you probably woudn't notice that said picture was photoshopped big time! i looked sickly i looked depressed i looked beat down. thank god for photoshop.


Painted my room today, i consider this my tribal paint because im trying to be a fighter. its not working very well.. my room looks nice tho.

I love him so much, so why am i considering throwing it all away? do i want to be with him anymore? do i want to leave everything i've got right now? do i want to deal with this bullshit anymore? do i want to try to make it work? am i capable of working things out? is he?

I have no clue..

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I'm not hungry, i dont want to sleep, i feel empty, i'm not motivated to do anything, i dont know why i'm doing this to myself, but i need to get away.

The Girl Can't Sleep

Its currently 3:26am and the girl cannot sleep. she has been up since 230am. These nightmares keep crawling into her sleep, leaving her with sleepless nights like this one. they keep persisting and seem to be getting worse, but they're never the same. She doesn't know what to do anymore. She does know she's worried. Is she ever going to be able to sleep normal again? God please let her get one good nights sleep...



What going on today?



At the girls city''s civic center there will be this huge winter bash with ice skating, other activities, and tons of music provided by her wonderful radio station, 89.1 wphs. the bad thing about the girls radio station is they dont go out very far.. Oh well its a start. between10 and 11 she will be on air doin her thang, and hopefully putting her nightmares behind her. she loves ice skating, she used to be a really good figure skater, but money got bad and sometimes dreams die. She does hope to get some skating in anyways. This is her first appearance on air outside the studio, and she's excited, it feels good. Radio is something special to her, its what she's good at, and she hopes to stick to it!


A Sailor's Kiss
Known in the navy. whenever someone in the navy comes home,
they redo this kiss with their loved one and it's a special moment.
That girl can only pray that when her love goes off to the Navy,
Once he comes back they will perform this magical kiss.
She loves him so much and looks forward to the day that,
Her love will come home and hold her in his arms.
The funny thing is he isn't even gone yet, and
she already misses him like no other.
She has no worries of what will happen,
she loves him, she trusts him, and she has no interest in any other love.
She can wait, but only for him, the one special person to her.
They haven't been together long, and they both know,
neither of them are going anywhere, but in each others arms.

the girl and her art

"lets sit on the Beach and watch the Sun go down." each of the different pieces of paper are a different texture. I'm quite proud of that!

Ryan Fisher<33

He's the one im looking for,

He's very special to me!

the writing at the bottom reads: Ryan Fisher, asked me out 12.18.09. Ryan Fisher, Told me he loved me on 1.4.09

I cant quite explain the meaning behind this one really. i saw stamps on one of the background pictures and it inspired me to do this. being the reason why it says inspire in the right corner. the white in the background is actually clear with a shirt underneath the picture. i really do like this one though.
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Yes everyone, I'm going out with Ryan. He's very very very very extra super special to me. I got to spend my New Years with him, it was amazing. as soon as the ball dropped he pulled me into his arms and and gave me the most amazing kiss ever<333

Life hasnt been to bad, house has been okay. Back to school from christmas break, that sucks. Spending as much time as possible with Ryan. Therapys going good. I dont Have a session this week. Kinda sucks, throws me outta wack.